Sunday, October 4, 2009


Today with a heavy heart I wrote exactly how I was feeling about my life in general and how disconnected I had become from nearly everyone in my life.

It did me good to put it into words and I meant all of it but somehow, perhaps being a little too soft, I deleted what I had written in case I should hurt anybody's feelings. This regardless of the fact of just how much mine may have been hurt over past months or even years in some cases.

Earlier this year I was very sad and ended up in hospital as a direct result of this sadness. This may sound somewhat nonsensical but I am sure I am right in saying this. If perhaps I had sat down then and written about how I feel it would have helped me a lot and I would not have become ill. Even tonight I don't feel all that wonderful but am sure I will get through and come out the other side of it.

Even though I have deleted what was written earlier today I still feel the same way but in order to save the feelings of others it is gone from their sight.

I still have my dear other half and he has me and for that I am very thankful and with that I must be content. I also give thanks for my computer through which I do have some contact with others, some of whom are really great people and I am thankful for that contact.


  1. I enjoy reading your posts very much, I did read what you wrote earlier and thought it was fair enough. Thanks for sharing your insight and being honest. I think you are pretty amazing to have mastered the computer and be on facebook at age 77!!

  2. Firstly Amanda thank you for your compliment re my use of the computer. It has become a lifeline to me 'cos of the fact that I can't get out and about very much. Through Facebook I have contact with some wonderful people around the world whch is so much fun.
    I am now wondering if you read the post that I actually deleted and replaced with the one above. I felt I had perhaps said a little too much that could hurt those close to me. What are your thoughts on that I wonder?
    I simply cannot say to those involved exactly how I feel so have to live with these feelings I have.
    Thank you so much for your kind comments. You are such a lovely lady.